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At the moment, I feel like I have ticked off the things I need to do for the day but at the back of my mind I know I have more checklists to attend to.

At the moment, I feel hungry that I want to splurge on every piece of junk food sold at stalls nearby where there seems to to be a great celebration over suspension of classes because it is sports fest season, but my pocket seems to be unwilling to take that splurge and my weary mood won’t stand a second amidst the festivities.

At the moment, I enjoy the sound of the tapping of the keyboard that I do while writing down this blog as well as the synchronous ticking of the clock telling me to not waste time away over blogging because I have letters to send out and reports to accomplish, but I am pretty much enjoying myself all rambled up in this piece I am writing so the heck with deadlines.

At the moment, I want to grab my bag, put on my earplugs, touch my playlist on shuffle and let the first song decide how I shall feel the moment, but let me unplug all sockets first and turn off all the lights because it is already way past my official duty hours.

 

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What is it with 7 and luck?

 

I’d rather be grateful than lucky.

Yes, I talk to the universe and all, especially when an awful fist of luck knocks me out like a domino falling, hitting me hard one blow after the other…or when nothing seems to be going my way no matter which way I go…or even when everything is dead blank and pitch dark yet and still the stars are too flicker on me…mostly, during the times I have to have something to blame and I could no longer force the blame on myself or to anyone. Yes, I do talk to the universe when I feel that I am the unluckiest earthling alive. It would seem like I am believer of luck. I may seem to be. But luck has never been kind to me. I even doubt if it ever exists.

Maybe when the universe is being less of a bitch and is starting to force a ray of good luck upon me, I am really not lucky at all.

Luck is too random to believe in and the universe is too bitchy to be nice to a random and insignificant earthling like me. But there is a stronger force, greater force behind the universe that makes me feel grateful instead. I am ever grateful, oh yes, I am, that as days fall off, I may falter but I don’t end with them.

Today marks the 7th day of my new year. With or without luck, I am grateful. With or without stars, I am grateful. I am grateful because I am alive to count up to this day that is about to end.

Tomorrow is another shot at winning fist fights with the universe.

Bring it on.

Loiterer

Some people live beautiful lives and they take pleasure in being wanderers. Some people live unfair lives beautifully and they find joy in being loiterers.

The first time I encountered the term ‘loitering’ was when I was a grader. All over the hallways of my school back then were reminders stating “NO LOITERING ALONG THE CORRIDORS” and student leaders took the rule seriously by dragging to the office of the Principal whoever was caught staying along the corridors. I have always thought loitering as illegal, a bad thing to do, a violation. Today, loitering to me is salvation.

To loiter is to stay in a place for no reason at all…to lag behind…to stop idly delaying something…It isn’t a crime at all as I used to think of it when I was a grader. At the moment, loitering is saving me from overthinking, stressing over and worrying about fickle matters.

Days have been passing me by and each passing day I seem to lose a part of me to frustrations when I am fully aware that there is a great deal of joy I am putting away just so I can bleed over the wrong decisions I have made in the past. I carry the weight of the past around allowing it to slow me down to where joy truly is and weighing me down instead of being strong enough to afford a simple smile. Short or long, the days have left me depleted, drained and devastated. Until one day, I decided to walk aimlessly. Then I decided to keep still. That was then I knew what I have been missing.

Walking aimlessly may sound like I have gone nuts or something. But the real score is, I have been walking around, sometimes chasing, running and leaping for things I would never have the power to control, and I have never given myself the opportunity to see myself in the very things that I just allow to pass me by, like the days that were supposed to have been spent with a better purpose than just having to get it over and done with. As the passing days consume me, I do not even recognize myself anymore. I have lost me.

So I have stopped and stared at familiar and unfamiliar places alike, hoping to find myself again. There are pieces of me everywhere and I have been too busy brooding to notice that even broken pieces show a beautiful story. I am everywhere, and I have to be a loiterer to be able to attract back to me the wondrous pieces I have thrown out because I do not want to be reminded of how unfair life is (truth is, life is really unfair, but someone told me that life is unfair but is still beautiful, and I believe him). In stopping by without purpose, stepping back a bit, staring while in senseless stops, I have seen once more how beautiful this life can be.

Even though I cannot promise myself that I will never have to lose my way again, I know that I can never be completely lost. Even though I cannot promise myself that I will never have to slice pieces of myself up, I know that I am not beyond repair; I can be fixed. That is the salvation from being a loiterer.

 

Some people live beautiful lives and they take pleasure in being wanderers. Some people live unfair lives beautifully and they find joy in being loiterers.

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So just let me stop and stare.

 

Cafe Hop

Nothing fancy. Nothing grand. Nothing planned.

For a coffee lover like me, it is predictable that the only thing that pleases me is a cup of coffee.

Today, I got to ride in coffee spoons and stir my way to special moments with extraordinary beings.

Where coffee is, there my heart shall be.

Three cafes in a day…each my first time…like they were candles I needed to blow to make a wish. Well I only have one: be remembered.

Today had been great.

Everything I Need to Know About Procrastination (and Mondays) I Learn From Garfield

With my horrific Monday hang-over and an interesting prompt on procrastination that I is underway, I think I have found my ideal mascot. Garfield is the epitome of furrball greatness with whom I have felt I am understood for what I feel about Mondays and procrastination and everything else he sees things (diet, food, exercise, to name a few more). It is good to know there is one cat who knows exactly how I feel in this kaleidoscopic complexity called life.

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(photo credits to google search)

http://dailypost.wordpress.com/dp_prompt/now-later/

Lost in One Republic’s Highway

Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life. ~Berthold Auerbach

Clad in my worn-out jeans, my husband’s over-sized white Hanes and faded sneakers, I jump behind a stranger’s pick-up truck with a fully-charged smart phone, put on a pair of dark glasses, snuggle into tie-dyed native blankie and hit the repeat button to play One Republic’s “Feel Again.” I am ready for a road trip to the countryside where a steaming native black coffee waits for me at the porch of a solitary cabin owned by another stranger. By then, I shall be playing another One Republic song, “Good Life” as I sip carelessly my brew and initiate random thoughts to brew at the same time. When I am done with my coffee, I shall then be listening to “Counting Stars” when I will have realized I have been wandering through my empty mind and heart for a long time for me to realize it is almost night time. I am now sitting at the hammock-imagining, wishing, thinking…Will this day ever end? Will this day ever come?

(This is how my current mood looks like in a canvas.)

http://dailypost.wordpress.com/dp_prompt/frame-of-mind/

image from http://www.shuttlecock.com

A Dose of Brilliant Quotes

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A quote saves you from all the worries about not being spontaneous on what you are about to say.

A quote is a life-saver. It gives you not only nuggets of wisdom but also sentence fillers in an utterly hopeless public speaking occasion.

Here are the quotes I ticked as my favorites in my Brilliant Quotes phone app and the life situations where I am grateful I have a quote to get by:

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1. On worrying about the future (why worry about the future?)

“The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time.” -Abraham Lincoln

2. On feeling hopeless (take it from the funny man and seek for rainbows all the time)

“You’ll never find a rainbow if you’re looking down.” -Charlie Chaplin

3. On cherishing friendship (true friends are rare; it is rare to meet someone exactly like you.)

“A friend is, as it were, a second self.” -Cicero

4. On living the life you want (fabulous piece of inspiration, agree?)

“You live but once; you might as well be amusing.” -Coco Chanel

5. On sleeping to your heart’s content (I have countless sleep debts and I just have to pay them off.)

” I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when I’m awake, you know.” -Ernest Hemingway

6. On saying what you need to say (say it, will you?)

“It’s better to say too much, than never to say what you need to say again.” -John Mayer

7. On dealing with your problems (sad but true)

” Never tell your problems to anyone…20% don’t care and the other 80% are glad you have them.” -Lou Holtz

8. On handling people who are a pain in the neck (inevitable!)

“There are some people that you cannot change, you must either swallow them whole or leave them alone.” -Margot Asquith

9. On being stunned by life (how true is that!)

“Ever notice how ‘what the hell’ is always the right answer?” – Marilyn Monroe

10. On procrastinating (definitely my favorite)

“Never put off tomorrow what you can do the day after tomorrow.” -Mark Twain

11. On appreciating simple joys (this keeps me obligated to give myself a me-time)

“Good friends, good books and a sleepy conscience: this is the ideal life.” -Mark Twain

12. On letting dreams be (the other side of chasing dreams that goes easier for lazy people)

“I’m sick of following my dreams. I’m just going to ask them where they are going and hook up with them later.” -Mitch Hedberg

13. One being selfless (my favorite for mothers’ day)

“We cannot do great things on this earth, only small things with great love.” -Mother Teresa

14. On being committed to someone for a lifetime (the message I gave for my high school best friend’s wedding)

“Do not think that love in order to be genuine has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired.” -Mother Teresa

15. On taking it easy on work (just when I am close to be working hard than normal, this saves my day)

“I’ve heard that hard work never killed anyone, but I say, why take the chance?’ -Ronald Reagan

16. On taking a time off (sometimes you just have to forget in order to move forward in life)

“Right now I’m having amnesia and deja vu at the same time. I think I have forgotten this before.” -Steven Wright

17. On heading where the roads lead (trust your feet!)

“I don’t know where I am going, but I am on my way.” -Voltaire

18. On making every moment count (I always tell myself I don’t have time or don’t have enough, but this quote brings me back to my senses)

“Lack of direction, not lack of time, is the problem. We all have twenty-four hours a day.” -Zig Ziglar

19. On finding fulfillment in life (cliche but this I say to myself and to others most of the time; overused in my speeches, too)

” Life  is a journey, not a destination.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson

 20. On loving someone truly (love is a mystery and Coelho made everything about love a perfect sense.)

“One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving.” -Pauo Coelho

 

Quotes speak to us like a preview of what we want to say to ourselves if we only trust our own brand of wisdom, says the poet in me. 

I was tempted to write an intellectually sounding anonymous name after this conclusive insight I have about quotes like what a tumblr post I came across with said and it sound like the best way to get people to pay attention to a quote or post is to put an anonymous or famous name after it.

Oh well, as for me, quotes are just amazing day boosters that I could not last a day not having one to talk myself into believing.

 

 

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