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What is it with 7 and luck?

 

I’d rather be grateful than lucky.

Yes, I talk to the universe and all, especially when an awful fist of luck knocks me out like a domino falling, hitting me hard one blow after the other…or when nothing seems to be going my way no matter which way I go…or even when everything is dead blank and pitch dark yet and still the stars are too flicker on me…mostly, during the times I have to have something to blame and I could no longer force the blame on myself or to anyone. Yes, I do talk to the universe when I feel that I am the unluckiest earthling alive. It would seem like I am believer of luck. I may seem to be. But luck has never been kind to me. I even doubt if it ever exists.

Maybe when the universe is being less of a bitch and is starting to force a ray of good luck upon me, I am really not lucky at all.

Luck is too random to believe in and the universe is too bitchy to be nice to a random and insignificant earthling like me. But there is a stronger force, greater force behind the universe that makes me feel grateful instead. I am ever grateful, oh yes, I am, that as days fall off, I may falter but I don’t end with them.

Today marks the 7th day of my new year. With or without luck, I am grateful. With or without stars, I am grateful. I am grateful because I am alive to count up to this day that is about to end.

Tomorrow is another shot at winning fist fights with the universe.

Bring it on.

Loiterer

Some people live beautiful lives and they take pleasure in being wanderers. Some people live unfair lives beautifully and they find joy in being loiterers.

The first time I encountered the term ‘loitering’ was when I was a grader. All over the hallways of my school back then were reminders stating “NO LOITERING ALONG THE CORRIDORS” and student leaders took the rule seriously by dragging to the office of the Principal whoever was caught staying along the corridors. I have always thought loitering as illegal, a bad thing to do, a violation. Today, loitering to me is salvation.

To loiter is to stay in a place for no reason at all…to lag behind…to stop idly delaying something…It isn’t a crime at all as I used to think of it when I was a grader. At the moment, loitering is saving me from overthinking, stressing over and worrying about fickle matters.

Days have been passing me by and each passing day I seem to lose a part of me to frustrations when I am fully aware that there is a great deal of joy I am putting away just so I can bleed over the wrong decisions I have made in the past. I carry the weight of the past around allowing it to slow me down to where joy truly is and weighing me down instead of being strong enough to afford a simple smile. Short or long, the days have left me depleted, drained and devastated. Until one day, I decided to walk aimlessly. Then I decided to keep still. That was then I knew what I have been missing.

Walking aimlessly may sound like I have gone nuts or something. But the real score is, I have been walking around, sometimes chasing, running and leaping for things I would never have the power to control, and I have never given myself the opportunity to see myself in the very things that I just allow to pass me by, like the days that were supposed to have been spent with a better purpose than just having to get it over and done with. As the passing days consume me, I do not even recognize myself anymore. I have lost me.

So I have stopped and stared at familiar and unfamiliar places alike, hoping to find myself again. There are pieces of me everywhere and I have been too busy brooding to notice that even broken pieces show a beautiful story. I am everywhere, and I have to be a loiterer to be able to attract back to me the wondrous pieces I have thrown out because I do not want to be reminded of how unfair life is (truth is, life is really unfair, but someone told me that life is unfair but is still beautiful, and I believe him). In stopping by without purpose, stepping back a bit, staring while in senseless stops, I have seen once more how beautiful this life can be.

Even though I cannot promise myself that I will never have to lose my way again, I know that I can never be completely lost. Even though I cannot promise myself that I will never have to slice pieces of myself up, I know that I am not beyond repair; I can be fixed. That is the salvation from being a loiterer.

 

Some people live beautiful lives and they take pleasure in being wanderers. Some people live unfair lives beautifully and they find joy in being loiterers.

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So just let me stop and stare.

 

Camera Roll: Selfie-sh Me Time

“And I simply decided to be happy again.”

Me time.

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A coffee.

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A blank space.

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A feel-good movie.

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A good book.

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A long nap.

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A blog page.

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A series marathon.

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A playlist.

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All for me.

Then, I can be human again.

I am a workaholic who is continuously in denial about it. Truth of the matter is, I work hard but I am not efficient, because if I were efficient, then I would not be extending office hours just to get things done, or stay late in the office only to plan out what else I would do for the next day and never get to finish my target again, and the cycle of procrastination goes on. I put off a lot of things when I feel stuffed by a calendar of things to do, pinned to the wall by daily demands and locked up by responsibilities I have no need to be reminded of. Sometimes I doubt if I am even human still. So this is why I demand myself a me time. A time for me simply put. Just to remind myself that I exist in a universe where there are humans like me who also get tired and need to lighten up when the road signs to getting a life get a bit blurry.

Then, I can be human again.

Me time.

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A Dose of Brilliant Quotes

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A quote saves you from all the worries about not being spontaneous on what you are about to say.

A quote is a life-saver. It gives you not only nuggets of wisdom but also sentence fillers in an utterly hopeless public speaking occasion.

Here are the quotes I ticked as my favorites in my Brilliant Quotes phone app and the life situations where I am grateful I have a quote to get by:

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1. On worrying about the future (why worry about the future?)

“The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time.” -Abraham Lincoln

2. On feeling hopeless (take it from the funny man and seek for rainbows all the time)

“You’ll never find a rainbow if you’re looking down.” -Charlie Chaplin

3. On cherishing friendship (true friends are rare; it is rare to meet someone exactly like you.)

“A friend is, as it were, a second self.” -Cicero

4. On living the life you want (fabulous piece of inspiration, agree?)

“You live but once; you might as well be amusing.” -Coco Chanel

5. On sleeping to your heart’s content (I have countless sleep debts and I just have to pay them off.)

” I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when I’m awake, you know.” -Ernest Hemingway

6. On saying what you need to say (say it, will you?)

“It’s better to say too much, than never to say what you need to say again.” -John Mayer

7. On dealing with your problems (sad but true)

” Never tell your problems to anyone…20% don’t care and the other 80% are glad you have them.” -Lou Holtz

8. On handling people who are a pain in the neck (inevitable!)

“There are some people that you cannot change, you must either swallow them whole or leave them alone.” -Margot Asquith

9. On being stunned by life (how true is that!)

“Ever notice how ‘what the hell’ is always the right answer?” – Marilyn Monroe

10. On procrastinating (definitely my favorite)

“Never put off tomorrow what you can do the day after tomorrow.” -Mark Twain

11. On appreciating simple joys (this keeps me obligated to give myself a me-time)

“Good friends, good books and a sleepy conscience: this is the ideal life.” -Mark Twain

12. On letting dreams be (the other side of chasing dreams that goes easier for lazy people)

“I’m sick of following my dreams. I’m just going to ask them where they are going and hook up with them later.” -Mitch Hedberg

13. One being selfless (my favorite for mothers’ day)

“We cannot do great things on this earth, only small things with great love.” -Mother Teresa

14. On being committed to someone for a lifetime (the message I gave for my high school best friend’s wedding)

“Do not think that love in order to be genuine has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired.” -Mother Teresa

15. On taking it easy on work (just when I am close to be working hard than normal, this saves my day)

“I’ve heard that hard work never killed anyone, but I say, why take the chance?’ -Ronald Reagan

16. On taking a time off (sometimes you just have to forget in order to move forward in life)

“Right now I’m having amnesia and deja vu at the same time. I think I have forgotten this before.” -Steven Wright

17. On heading where the roads lead (trust your feet!)

“I don’t know where I am going, but I am on my way.” -Voltaire

18. On making every moment count (I always tell myself I don’t have time or don’t have enough, but this quote brings me back to my senses)

“Lack of direction, not lack of time, is the problem. We all have twenty-four hours a day.” -Zig Ziglar

19. On finding fulfillment in life (cliche but this I say to myself and to others most of the time; overused in my speeches, too)

” Life  is a journey, not a destination.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson

 20. On loving someone truly (love is a mystery and Coelho made everything about love a perfect sense.)

“One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving.” -Pauo Coelho

 

Quotes speak to us like a preview of what we want to say to ourselves if we only trust our own brand of wisdom, says the poet in me. 

I was tempted to write an intellectually sounding anonymous name after this conclusive insight I have about quotes like what a tumblr post I came across with said and it sound like the best way to get people to pay attention to a quote or post is to put an anonymous or famous name after it.

Oh well, as for me, quotes are just amazing day boosters that I could not last a day not having one to talk myself into believing.

 

 

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Credits: http://www.verybestquotes.com/quote-of-the-day-let-the-mind-become-still/; https://www.bq4android.com;http://www.verybestquotes.com/category/life-quotes/

 

Dare to Soar

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One of my biggest preparation of the year is capturing a moving theme for the annual Awards Day. After a couple of lattes and cold black coffee, I found my heart stopping at the concept of SOAR.

For this year’s Awards Day, deserving students will once again be donned with their medals and spark inspiration among their fellow students to be achievers, too.

Two years ago, the inspiration to take flight was sparked. Just last year, a matrix of success was woven. This year is the moment to soar through time.

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Preparing for Awards Day meant hours of “googling” for an inspirational piece for the verse choir presentation (not to mention days of shuffling playlists for songs that will give life to the theme). Thanks to google, I got a link to a poem published in allpoetry.com. This poem was written by hunkydory. For me, it is perfect for the theme. With a little help from the full teaching force of the high school department, I am high-spirited that the program will truly soar.

Let’s Soar High

Think beyond your thinking,

Go beyond The stars ,

 

Reach beyond your boundaries,
As sky is only our limit,

 

Lets,

 

Soar high,

 

Break through the bars,

 

Crack open the doors,

 

Pave our way to success;

 

Throughout we go tirelessly,

 

With no worries,

 

We shall reach our goal.

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Dare to soar, UNORians.

~Make waves~